First Week of School
Hi bloggers , been quite a long time since I last update my blog. I'm seriously fucking busy with my work. I'm under alot of pressure. Lets not talk about thing that happened during holiday because it's awesome and I had alot of fun. I'm glad to share with you the fun that I had during the holiday but I've no time. I only have time to blog about the first week of school , the stress life that I'm facing.
The reason why I decided to my precious time to blog is because there are some conflicts going on in my class. Okay we had a lifeskill project gave by our lecturer last Wednesday when I'm not around. I'm in a group of 4 where the other three are girls. One of the group member did tell me about the project but she didn't explain it clearly. She only mentioned what I need to do which is not so clear to me too because I don't know what is going on , what are we doing this for and ect. As I'm busy , I forget about the project and yesterday , after a tiring CCA fair , I suddenlty thought of the lifeskill project and tweet them about it. They replied back yesterday , one day before the due date , which is today. They rush me to do thing. Omg , if I didn't have the initiative to ask you all , I guess I'm gonna be totally lost. They knew everything about the project and why they don't call or sms or whatsapp or email or whatever to me ?! Where are the initiative ? Why must I come to you ? I don't mind but in this case , I'm busy till I forget about it and at least I did ask you all about it. You all are not professional enough. When you told me what to do yesterday , I already half dead. Yeah you don't know how tired I am and I don't like last minute order ! Then , worse , both of them went to Twitter & Facebook , update the status , indirectly shoot at me saying I'm not committed and whatsoever. They also tweeted that they have no mood to do and ect. Its clear that you are stress because they are more work to do since I didnt do my part and most importantly , ITS BECAUSE THET STILL HAVENT EVEN FINISH OR START THEIR PART TOO. You all know about the project since last Wednesday , and why cant you finish it ? Why must start one day before the submission date ? Why ? Why ?
Please stop blaming people , reflect and blame yourself. Why blame yourself ? Its because
- You are stress because you yourself havent even start or finish your part and now you are mad at me for giving you all more job. If you have done your part , and you know I can't do it , you won't feel as stress as this because everything is done and you only need to think on how to finish my part.
- Secondly, you guys know what to do , whats going on and why you all never update me ?
- Thirdly , there's no meetup or initiative to ask when I'm free and ect.
- Fourthly , everything is not clear for me , instruction all messed up.
- Fifth , you all didn't manage this professionally.
- Lastly and theres more I guess , you all are self-centered.
I'm so not interested to be part of the class anymore. I'm so tired and this is what I got.
First day of school , as I'm part of the student councils , I've to take care of my juniors class , the new students from January intake. Classmates have to come to school at 1pm because lesson start at 1pm but I've to reach school by 8am and end later than my classmates. Same goes to Tuesday. You all start late end early , I start early and end late. Was not suppose to come for both days because I'm on MC but SC really need me so I've to come. For Monday , after tiring orientation , I've to rush to Bishan campus for meeting till 9pm.
Third day of school , Wednesday, I came to school 1 hour early because none of my classmates are willing to tell me that the school starts at 9am instead of 8am. Then , I've to leave at 1.30pm because I've to rush to MacPherson at 3pm for CCA Fair briefing. This is where I miss the Lifeskill class where teacher lecturer explained about the project & I don't know any single fuck. After the briefing , I've to meet Mr Murali for Tennis meeting and everything finish around 7pm where my classmates already end their sch around 3pm.
On Thursday , I came to school as per normal , and one of the group member told me I've to do the heading , I don't know what heading is she talking about because it's lesson time and I'm concentrating on my IT Essential work. Before I could finish my IT Essential work , I've to go for meeting at SD . I didn't bring my bag because I thought I'll reach class before the class end then can discuss about the project too. But the lesson ends before my meeting end. One of my classmates brought my bag down and I saw they walk in a group of 10 or 12 . None of them are from my group. I don't know anything and I ask one of them where they going , and they told me they are going to canteen to eat. So I joined and when I reached the canteen , they all shouted at me " Eh why you here ? You not our group " . IM LOST ! Totally lost , because I dont know that they are all in the same group and going to discuss about the lifeskill project. I was so upset and decided to leave the place. Though some of them jokingly chase me out , but it hurts alot. Before that , I had meeting and the meeting didnt went well and the upper in charge keep rejecting my proposals. I was so upset and went down to meet my classmates and I thought I can have some fun with them after the bullshit meeting but they make the matter worse. Im under pressure , Im lost and I kena fuck by them. 1pm , I went straight to MP campus though my meeting starts at 5pm aft kena chase out by them. Meeting was fun but still stressful.
The next day I came , didnt think about what happen on Thursday because they seems okay like nothing happen. It's IT Essential lesson and I'm totally lost. I did asked my classmates and some of them like not sincere in helping me and some of them can ignore me. They never think of my feeling coz they always see me happy , yeah I'm happy to entertain you all. You know what ? Last semester , I always voluntary help my classmates who are lost , some , I spend my time to meet them at library or restaurant or kopitiam just to teach them. Seems like they never appreciate. They always need me when they need me.
After the lesson , I went to Bishan for 2 meetings which ends around 9pm. It was tiring for me. I've to take off on weekends , I can't work with this kind of condition. On saturday , I did have rest but I went out at night to spend my time with my awesome friends as I already have enough rest. Sunday , I had meeting with Joseph and I reached home after midnight.
On Monday & Tuesday , I'm not in school because I've to go to MP Campus for CCA fair. Imagine you have to reach MP by 0800am and have to leave later than your lesson time. It was tiring , super tiring and thats when I received a reply from them about the task. I was so tired & not feeling well. Im under alot of pressure due to A2L planning too. They told me last minute , expect me to do ? No.
I wanted to leave this school since I got a good result for my O level ratake. However , because I've alot of commitment with A2L , SC, HD , ACE , Blaze , I can't just simply quit. Luckly I have awesome friends who made me think of them whenever I'm under pressure.
Others , never appreciate.
